An affair.

Today was a wonderful day.
Untill i saw them again..
He's my father.. And that woman who broke our family.
I sweared today, that i'll do something to her one day.
When, i go crazy... that one day will come soon..
And i will get into trouble again..
Is it worth it? To me now, it is..
Just so i can make Her life miserable too..
Let Her freaking kid know that her mum's a bitch..

Like i've said, today was a wonderful day.
Tomorrow will be a gym day..
Wednesday will be a "remembering about childhood days" day with Christian!
Thursday - SUN TANNING! Whoooooohoooooo~
Friday, Graduation..
Sat, sun, shopping for new year clothes! Hehe.
This week will be a wonderful week(:

I should go to bed now.
My monster just msged me..(:
I should go..

Ps. Come on, swear to god, that you've never talked about us.
Stop acting like the victim here, cuz you're not.
I know what kind of Person you are.
or maybe......... i dont.......
Maybe....
You've just been putting a mask on since the day we've met..
How saddd, Ha

Alright.
Nights, sweeeeeeeet dreaaaaaaammmsss.

Life,

Fishing tonight..
Going out to get the fishing stuffs later..

I've been straightening my hair everyday.
Its dying soon, poor hair. Tsk.

*there's something going wrong..
Did you realise it?
Its always the stupidest things..
what if.. we..... no!!! nvm....

would come back soon.
ciao.

A battlefield

Everytime i wanna blog.. i would stare at the screen..thinking, on what to say..
For a very longggg time..

I'm at home now.. And i really dont know what to say here..
I'm looking at pictures of us 3..
Its sad how things change so fast and how promises could just fade away..
I always say i treasure that friendship with her so much..
Suprisingly, i could just really say that i do not want the friendship anymore.
I'm tired of always being the one initiating.
When the other one, always say something and wait for me to step forward first.
I'm tired of always being the one in the wrong,
when i'm not; just to save our friendship.
You're not a queen. Not everyone has to serve you.
Dont wait and sit there and expect things to happen, babe.
Admit that you're wrong too. Dont always put the blame on me.
I'm not the one who didnt not contact you, you too. Think about yourself.
Like you've always said, it takes 2 hands to clap..
Friends arent suppose to be like that.
I didnt, because i'm sick and tired of it.

That's why, i've given up,long time ago.
As much as i've missed you so much, i dont want to act and say we are friends.
You dont want to be friends too, so show it.
Dont always hide behind that mask.

Yes, You've made a really big impact on me.
Because you're the one that i swear to god that i would do anything for.

But, no more.
I dont want it anymore.

Thanks for the memories for the 2 years. You've made me realise that we have to choose friends really wisely. Thankyouverymuch.

You'll probably say something somewhere if you know that im talking about you. And i wont be able to fight back because i wont be able to win the words that you use. But whatever. You can say what you want. To me, it will just make no sense anymore. Because i dont care. (:

peace.

Everything then

Reading back all the posts that i've blogged..
How stupid and navie was i?
Believing in that particular girl friendship that has been so precious to you
and thinking that something that will happen between you and that so called prince charming then?
The truths all came out.
And it just turns out to be just a show.
Ha, how entertaining.
That friendship that i used to care, cry, get hurt from, is none of my bussiness anymore.
I dont care now, i just dont care. I've just given up on it.
Roll your eyes and say whatever you want.
(:

I really miss my childhood times.
I miss Christian, Timothy, Claire, Ethan..

Now, i just wish to get out of the house now.
NOW, like NOW.
so bye.

NO

i'll pray.. i'll pray real hard. I dont want it to be so soon..
I know it will still happen one day.. But.. Just.. Not now.
):

Lets go crazy like how we use to

Okay, i've changed my skin.
But lost everything. All my links.
Its late, so i guess i'll edit next time.
People, please leave me your links through my comments.
Thankyou!(:

To Baby, I'm so fortunate to have you by my side.
Thankyou for you and thankyou for everything you've done for me.
I love you.

I'm gonna eat my meds and go to sleep now.
If anyone's even reading.. takecare and stay happy.

I'll come back to update soon i guess.
Bye.