If only..

Today, i have to rot at home again.

Not meeting Tasha W. already.

hmmm, maybe not now.

But at night,

after i collect my phone i guess.

):

Well, maybe its good that i dont have to leave house now.

Because my knees are hurting again.

&i cant even stand up.

damn, i just wish i could chop them off.

i shouldnt have love playing soccer back then.

if i didnt, some idiot wouldnt trip me

&i wouldnt fall real hard on my left knee.

if i didnt fall, my left knee wouldnt hurt &swell.

if it didnt hurt, i wouldnt rely too much on my right knee when running.

if i didnt rely too much on my right knee, then i wouldnt over use it.

if i didnt over use it, it wouldnt swell &hurt too!

argh.

its killing me.

how i wish i could run, jump &sqaud freely

without worrying about the pain.):

crap.

x

5:14pm

i heard this song from sissy's blog(:

click play if you wanna hear it.

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里

梦想中 属於我们的婚礼

却成了 单人结婚进行曲

在这场爱情角力的拔河里

爱我还是爱你你选择了自己 wo~

撒娇的 可爱的

迷人的 爱哭的

照片里 曾经的 都是你喜欢的

如今我还在原地

你却走回你的记忆

你说我爱你太多 就快要把你淹没

你害怕幸福 短暂一秒就崩落

分开是一种解脱 让你好好的想过

我想要的那片天空 你是不是能够给我

你说我给你太多 却不能给我什麽

分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑

爱情是一道伤口 我们各自苦痛

沉默是我最後温柔

是因为我太爱你

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里

梦想中 属於我们的婚礼

安静了 在我枕边的梦里

我知道相爱原本就不容易

爱不是一场雨努力就有结局 wo~

撒娇的 可爱的

迷人的 爱哭的

照片里 曾经的 都是你爱着你的

连假的泪还温热却没有人握我的手

你说我爱你太多 就快要把你淹没

你害怕幸福 短暂一秒就崩落

分开是一种解脱 让你好好的想过

我想要的那片天空 你是不是能够给我

你说我给你太多 却不能给我什麽

分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑

爱情是一道伤口 我们各自苦痛

沉默是我最後温柔

是因为我太爱你

ciao.

I feel rainbows coming into my life.(:

AHLOHA!

ohhhhhhhh..

i slept sooo well last night, like finally.

thanks to someone:D

<33333

i'm going to meet Tasha W. today!

i haven't seen her for 5days!

&i miss her like so freaking much.

i'm gonna collect my new phone today too.

weeeeee, double happinesszxzsx!:D

life's great now!

no more, emo-ing.(:

i cant wait for holidays to end.

&go to school again.

Baby,

thankyou for being with me for that 3months12days.

You make me feel different.

Different from your ex girlfriends..

You make me feel, Special.

&i thank you for that.

though, i heared alot of things that you said about me.

& i hated you.

but, i dont now.

because it will be really unfair if i just keep hearing things

from other ppl's mouth &judge you.

(:

so,Takecare alright?

&again, good luck for everything you do.

i know you'll be reading this.(:

Enjoy your life with her.

Lots of love from,

Cecilia.

xoxoxoxo

k, i've finish talking.

shall go bathe now.(:

ciao.

<3

Burnin' Up(:

pffffft, didnt go sun tanning just now.

stayed at home.

&rotttttttt.

Dad's gonna buy a new phone for me!
:DDD

BF<3

No school = No meeting Ahwei to go school together.):

this is random. ha!

Done talking here.

Chatting with idol now.

:DD

CIAO.

Crap post.

-

你最近还好吗?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

NATASHA WEERASEKERA!<3


As days goes by, i slowly forget about him.
Though, i haven't got over him compeletly..
But still, at least; im trying.


Ytd was fun. Met up with ai.(:
Went to causeway point to shop.
She bought a nike water bottle &i bought a billabong bag:D
hehe, superb happy.
We talked alot.
Because we've not met up since we've graduated from JSS.
It was nice to know about her poly life.
:D


Went home to put my stuffs &went out again.
Met up with BF(!) at city hall!
i missed her sooooo much larhh.):
We went to raffles city's basement one's fountain, sat dere&chat.
hehehehe, idol was at city hall too:D
So, he came to meet us.:DDDDD
OMG, idol, tsk. why you liddat?

(he repeated "tsk. why you liddat?"

for like sooooo many times. macham siao;P)
hahaha! &yes yes, you do look abit like a rabbit.

hmmm, okay. really Abit nia.(:
heh, then after awhile,

he left when his best friend came to meet him.):
BF &i talked &waited for Clarence &Tasha to end work at the same time.
We waited til 12 plus &we decided to go home.
Beacuse BF cant stay already. &i'm tired.
so, we went home.
Sorry Tasha for not waiting.):
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU BFF!:D<3>
meet up on tuesday k love?(;
muackz*(:

i'm meeting dar later.
We're going suntanning!
weeeeee~

idol(!), im gonna be tann-ner then you!;P
you mai action.
haha!

i took two pictures ytd.

will upload them soon.

CIAO.

Without Trust there is No Love.

Good Morning!

i'm here to upload two pictures.

hehe, pictures of Zq with my Tigger before i came.

so cute larhhhh.

haha!

Awwwww, zq, dont paiseh.(:

;P

Anyway, thanks for coming even when you're sick.

takecare yeah?<3

.........

I'm meeting aiai later!:D

&&,

Might be meeting my girls &Papa after they end work

to celebrate Tasha W.'s bdae!

which is tmr!:D

Weeeee. i think we're gonna ton.

whahaha.

poor idol is having training now.

tsk tsk.

Shall end here.

off to have my breakfast!

CIAO.

Z.A.K is loveddddd:D

Today is a happy happy day.

Happy Birthday to me!

hehehehe.

Ahhhhhh.. i have sunburn!!

Ouch.

lazy to type.

Let the pictures do the talking.

(:

SENTOSA~

SEOUL GARDEN~

My TIGGER!:DDDD<3333333

done.:D

Today is better than i thought.

Thankyou so much Z.A.K(:

Thankyou Sera, Bairong &Kenn too.

Thankyou those ppl who wished me Happy birthday.

Thankyou thankyou thankyou!

<3333333

Gosh, my face is killing me.

hotttttttt & painnnnnnn!

argh.

Chatting with idol now.

hehehehe.

LOVES TO ALL!

CIAO.

Copyrighted from Scandal:D

She always takes her pictures like this(:

LOL.

I miss CTQ.):

i'm so bored.

IDOL, where are you?

x

Tmr, meeting Dearest'Sera to Sentosa in the morning.

Then, i'm meeting Z.A.K at 4pm to have dinner at Seoul garden.

sweeeeeeet.

(:

oh ya, my family bought me out for dinner two days ago already.

Early bdae celebration.
whaha.

Hopefully, tmr will be a happy day.

Going running soon.

CIAO.

The Best thing to learn is to love &be loved in return.

Lovelies, my girls(:

ignore my previous post.

i just felt sad, at that moment.:D

F1 starts today..

which means, my girls are all busy at work already.

sigh, grand stand.
they are so lucky.

if i went for the interview,

i would be standing at the grand stand with the chefs too.

but, i didnt.

so i have to rot at home.

hoping that this 3days will pass fast.

cuz, i miss my girls-BF'Angel,BFF'Tasha W. &my Papa-Clarence already.

My birthday is tmr.

&how i wish i could celebrate my birthday with them.

they cant, because they are working.):

but nvm, i have Z.A.K:D

i wonder what's the plan?

hehe, i cant wait to go out with them.

:D

Chatting with idol now.

Waiting for Zq to go online &tell me about tmr's plan.

(:

REPLY TO TAG:

ZQ: OEI, i will be happy de. Seeyou tmr(: i cant wait to see what you've planned. haha!

CIAO.

you,

what exactly did you say to idol?

i'm feeling terrible.

my heart aches so much.

i miss him so Fucking alot.

i shouldnt have viewed it.

Seeing how sweet they are together..

Seeing them calling each other with nicknames..

Feeling how happy they are together..

Fuck You.

i hate You.

Sigh.

Going to Tasha W. house now.

Cuz' i need you here &its just not fair.

Chalet

Its was really fun.

Get to know more ppl from the Culinary class.

Watched Sunrise on the second day

with Terrance, Weitong, Jon & Bp'idol:D

Weitong &Idol's jokes are really funny..

Didnt sleep the first night,talked &listened to thier jokes.

(:

Second day was fun too.

Went swimming(:

The others drank at night.

&i slept.

I LOVE the all-girls time.

Its really nice.

I love BOTH OF YOU.

&thankyou BF & Clarence for the Cake.

Thankyou thankyou thankyou!

<333

Photos are all with Bari &Tasha..

Will upload them soon..(:

Idol & Zq are sick.

Takecare! both of you.

My bdae is in 3days time.

i dont really look forward to it.

i hope he was here to celebrate with me.

but its impossible, he's enjoying with someone else.

i miss my girls.

ciao.

did i lose my love to someone better?

&does she love you more than i do,

i do, you know;

i really really do.

-

why do you even care if we're msging?

Do you catch a breath when i looked at you?

Chalet is tmr!

3days 2nights..

Meeting Bf, Tasha W. & Clarence later,

to buy the bbq stuffs:D

You,

Thankyou for comforting me,

when you are in the same situation as me

&feeling terrible too.

Thankyou for understanding Exactly how i feel(:

Seeyou at the Chalet!:DDD

Will update once i'm back.

LOVES to ALL.

Takecare Dar.loveyou<3
(:

ciao.

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

http://www.quizbox.com/

Did this quiz from Sera's blog.

Interesting.(:

Waiting for Tasha W. to wake up.

Might be meeting her later..

Meanwhile, i'm laughing.

Laughing at the conversation Honglin &bendan is having.

HAHA.

&again. Honglin, i'm Not jealous.(:

i think.

Reply to tag:

BOYFRIEND: I LOVE YOU!

SO SO SO MUCH.(:

ciao.

Baby,

all i ever think about is you.

You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized.):

I thought, my tears has all dried up.

But i was wrong.

I wasnt Myself today.

After seeing him, i... sigh.):

I realise that part of me,

still wants him to notice me.

But i guess he didnt?

I have so much to say..

but, should i still talk about him?):

i dont think i should..

Why should we be sad over them

when they are enjoying themseleves with somebody else?

Like as if,

they will even think of us.

that's what i told idol.

But, ha.

me,myself is crying/sad over him still.

The day of the chalet is the day we broke up for 3months.

I wonder how long him &her were together already?

............

Ahhh, stop.

sorry BF,Tasha,Clarence &Bari for being so upset today.

&thankyou Bf, Tasha for being there.

You two are my best best best partners:D

Chalet day is coming.

YEAH!

I CANT WAIT!

:D

Nothing else to say.

Excpet for..

to you,

will you Ever Ever

think of me, at all?

ciao.

Its gonna Hurt when it Heals too.

What's wrong with me today?
I have very hot temper.

Sorry bf, for arguing with you.):

-Fated.-

Bf, Tasha W &i always does the same thing.

Our habits &alot alot of stuffs are soo similar too.(:

Ohhhh, ILoveThem. HEHE.

Chalet's in 4days time.

I'm so excited!

I wish idol would go.(:

i wish L could too, but..

Nvm, enough CECILIA.

I'm gonna enjoy myself at the chalet,

with him out of my mind:D

Ytd's Pictures:

Done:D

Didnt run for two days.

&i feel faaaattttttt.

Tmr tmr, Run run(:

WHAHAHA.

Random,

Best Friend Best Friend

iLOVEyou too:D

-

"baby, i love you more than words could ever describe."

pffffff, ya right..

ciao.

POOOOFF!

(zq's Trademark)

Z.A.K never failed to make me Laugh.

Just came home after dinner with Z.A.K(:

Had Crystal Jade.

YUMM YUMM.

Something that made me Laughed so hard today.

Staff from Tori Q: Sir, are you taking away or eating in?

ZhenQuan: I Am Zhenquan.

hahahaha!

god, ZQ you're dumb&LAME.

(:

took some pictures with ZQ's "slow" but very clear phone.

awwwww...

HAHA. shall upload them soon.

Busy chatting with Idol now:DD

ciao.

My tears are turning into Time that

i've Wasted trying to find a reason for Goodbye.

Its gonna hurt when it heals too.

Went home with Shan today.

Gossiped &Talked alot.
Its been quite awhile since we've Really talked.

I miss her whinning.. HAHA.

BOO!

Suprise to LoiHuiShan!:D

Dearest Partner,

Dont be too upset alright?

Takecare of yourself &think what's best for you.

Think carefully whether you want Her or Her..(:

haha, i will always be there for you.

No need to thank me.

Many many Loves from me to you!:D

Okayokay, dont puke..

TAKECARE my Dearest Cacat.

seeyou ard in school:D

Going Out for dinner with Z.A.K later.

Cant wait to listen to ZhenQuan's Nonsense,

Andy's Craps &Junko's Laughter:D

i'll definately have fun.(:

They never Failed to make me Laugh/Smile/High..

That's what i Love about them.(:

There's class outing tmr.

Hope it'll be fun.

Shall go bath now.(:

Ciao.

-

i Miss my Best friend, Lim Suhwee.

&,i miss him too.):

Will i Ever see him again?

Rainy day.

Went to Tasha W's house after lesson.

Did the Report &Introduction for the Project.

Like finally, its done.

i hope BF &Yusri will be okay with it.

(:

Chatting with idol now.

Gosh, we're totally on the same boat.

People like them should Die.

Seriously..Argh.

How can they be so Heartless?

Working tmr.

Working on Sunday too.

Wisma Atria.(:

Pray hard for the sales to be good.

Huat Ar!

:D

Ahwei is missing.

Where are you Where are you?

ciao.

Running, makes my mind free.

Randomly,

after running,

while walking home..

i thought..

What's so good about Krystal?

Is she really worth for him to do this?

Did he ever loved me before/at all?

She must be laughing.

Laughing at me.

Thinking that i'm pathetic.

Laughing that i was being fooled all along unknowingly

&stupidly still believing him.

I'm thinking too much Again.

i know.

But still, i cant help it.

Idol knows exactly how i feel.

Because his situation is almost the same as mine.

Hating but still Missing..

This kind of feeling is unexplainable.

Only Idol understands.

I wont Always think of him like how i used to.

Memories,Feelings are fading away too.

I just dont understand Why, Why must he do this to me.

Only He Knows.

Fullstop.

My Master piece(:

Practical was interesting today.

My product turned out to be pretty pretty:D

Bused down to Tasha W's house after that.

Its nice to spend time with my girls.

Just the three of us.(:

Bused home at 5plus.

&here i am.

Going running at 7.15.

Hope that i wont bump into Ahwei when running.

Fcuk, there's something wrong with my msn.

i cant log in.):

what's wrong what's wrong?

Didnt get to see idol in school today.

tmr tmr? i wish(:

I didnt see him this few days too.

wonder if he left school already..

shucks, why should i bother?

i'm gonna go prepare for a run now.

ciao.

-

i miss him though.

B

a

b

y

.

i hate i hate i hate my knee injury.

its killing me whenever i run.

but i Love running.

it keeps my mind free, from everything recently.

But i cant tolerate with the pain.):

what can i do?

...

Endure &continue.

i will not stop running untill i'm paralyze.

because,

running is the only time that can stop myself from thinking of anything.

):

-

Avril Lavigne-Nobody's home

But I couldn't tell you

Why she felt that way

She felt it everyday

And I couldn't help her

I just watched her make

The same mistakes again

What's wrong, what's wrong now

Too many, too many problems

Don't know where she belongs

Where she belongs

She wants to go home but nobody's home

That's where she lies broken inside

Was no place to go, no place to go

To dry her eyes broken inside

Open your eyes

And look outside

Find the reasons why

You've been rejected

And now you can't find

What you left behind

Be strong, be strong now

Too many too many problems

Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs

She wants to go home but nobody's home

That's where she lies broken inside

Was no place to go, no place to go

To dry her eyes broken inside

Her feeling she hides

Her dream she can't find

She's losing her mind

She's fallen behind

She can't find her place

She's losing her faith

She's fallen from grace

She's all over the place

Yeah

She wants to go home but nobody's home

That's where she lies broken inside

Was no place to go, no place to go

To dry her eyes broken inside

She's lost inside, lost inside (oh, oh)

She's lost inside, lost inside (oh, oh) Oooh

-

i Miss JSS crosscountry team'07,Bdivison.

):

Secondary school days(:

Had lunch after practical with BF &Clarence at KFC today. Got to see Idol:D Saw him too.. he seems real happy huh. Your last month here. Guess you just cant wait to quit school &have Alot of time to spend with Krystal. Good luck to you then. Anyway, worked the past two days. Really tiring. But fun. Met really interesting customers..(: Ahwei accompanied me home on saturday. It was raining but still he walked me home.

Thankyou Dumbdumb.

There's no school tmr. Meeting up with Classmates to do the project(:

Going running soon.. ciao.

-

Alone, i'll be your shadow.

Afraid, stay behind me.

Wanna cry, here's my shoulder.

Need a hug, i'll embrace you tight &say

"whatever happens to you, you still have me."

Good night and sweetest of dreams.(:

remember this?

this is the only thing that is left now.

the only thing that i do not bare to delete.

everytime i read this, i'll tear.

All those happy times together, have you forgotten?

*

i pray i pray, for this heart to be unbroken.

Back from running again. I feel so good after running:D Today was a Nice day. Met up with Ahwei in the morning. &i was late for school. Thanks to that Pantat. Haha. School was okay. Got to know our results. I just passed. Damn. Nevermind, shall buck up for final year then.(: Went to void deck to chat with Tasha after school. Then, she came over to my house to borrow my black sneakers for her F1 training tmr. Went running after she left. &now, here i am siting infront of the computer after i bathed. hehe. :)Ahwei printed my fav number on his basketball jersey as promised. Thankyou!:D

shall end here. Loves to all. Takecare.

-

Luke once told me,

he would print my fav number on his jersey too.

):

-

Do you ever feel like breaking down?

Do you ever feel out of place?

Like somehow you just don't belong

And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna runaway?

Do you lock yourself in your room?

With the radio on turned up so loud

That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels all right

You don't know what it's like

To be like me

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?

Are you sick of feeling so left out?

Are you desperate to find something more?

Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?

Are you sick of everyone around?

With their big fake smiles and stupid lies

While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels all right

You don't know what it's like

To be like me

No one ever lied straight to your face

No one ever stabbed you in the back

You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay

Everybody always gave you what you wanted

Never had to work it was always there

You don't know what it's like, what it's like

Welcome to my life

Back.

&my knee is hurting like crazy again.

I hope i can still walk normally tomorrow..):
Done talking. Shall upload Pictures.(:

Today:

We bought this band. &we decided to take pictures with it. haha.

I(L)you ManyMany Bei(:

Yesterday:

Happy Birthday to Junko:D

Teacher's Day:

IMRAN, SERA(:

4A'07 Rocks.(:

Cross Country BBQ:

Mr Siah ZQ.LOL.

Presenting Z.A.C.K!<3

Z,c.

A,c.

K,c(:

That's All.

I'm meeting Ahwei tomorrow(:

Havent seen him for 2weeks.

I'm sooooo hungry now.

My knee is still hurting. &i cant walk properly.

sigh. i think i'll go rest early.

Nights to all. Loves.

-

i wish i could scream out loud like no one's business.

i wish you would know how much i Loved you.

I wish i wish i wish..

Wishes Don't Come True.