Trust the voice within

I just Dont understand.

Practical was fun.
Went straight home after that.

I really dont understand.
Why would things be like this?
I wish things was the same as before.
When i could shout "papa!" from far in school.
Its gonna be really weird now..
I wish they could still be friends..

&i'm so fucking irritated now.
Seriously...
Just Shut up will you?
I cant take it anymore.
I wanna get out of this house.
I cant wait to get out of this house.

I'm so tired of everything.
I have such urge to end my life.
It will be better that way.
They will be happier without me.
Since, i'm the devil at home.
At least i wouldnt hear her ask me to my as well be a prostitude.
Ha.

My knee is really hurting.
I want see a doctor.
But, who will go with me?
Who will pay the medical fees for me?
They used to care.
But now. They dont.
All they think is my behaviour is getting worst &worst.
They dont care if i cant run anymore.
They will think its better because i will stay at home more often.
But its making me mad.
I wanna run.. i really want to..
But, the pain is really killing me nowadays..
Even when i walk.
The only thing that can somehow relieve my pain is my knee guard.
That's why i'm wearing it everyday now.
But even if i do, it still hurts.
The pain really can make me cry.
Because imagine BOTH knee hurting at the same time..
Both of them.. Hurting..
Ever-y-da-y.
What if i really cant run or walk in the future?
What if what if what if?
I know i'm thinking too much.
But, i'm really scared/terrified.
):

Enough of this.
I love this song.

Its soothing me down.

High School Muscial 3 is really a awesome movie.

I will nv regret watching it.

Watched it with my sis ytd.

Its seriously,

A-W-E-S-O-M-E.

Singing, singing &more singing.

(:

I'm going out for a run now.

I'll get use to the pain sooner or later.

Goodbye.