Girl meets boy.

School was okay.

Went home after school to change.

Spent some time at dover then went to Tasha's house.

Sat under her block and talked for 1hour plus.

Its nice just siting down to talk.(:

To you,

if you were to see this someday,

I really hope that we'll start talking,again.

I hope that we can still be friends..

Like you said we would, before..

Seeyou ard in school.

(:

im gonna sleep now.

Nights.

Past and Present.

Ik mis je.
Ik mis met je gepraat te hebben over de telefoon.
Ik mis je stem horen.
Wanner zullen we ooit weer praten?
:(

If only time to turn back to November 2008.
To that particular period of time..
If only..

Im still holding on.

&I dont know why either.

Als alleen de liefde was gemakkelijker.

Back home.

Counted my angbaos.

And im contented.(:

All the snackings and cold drinks are making me sick.

This year, there wasnt anyone to stop me from eating too much sweets and drinking too much cold drinks. So.. yeah.

I hope my asthma doesnt come back.

):

Tomorrow, school.

Having test too.

Ik heb geen studie nog!

Omg, Im so dead.
I think i should study now.

Again, im alone at home.

Nights everyone, ciao.

Life.

Reunion dinner.

Was suppose to be a happy thing.

But this year it was different.

It became so emotional.

Too emotional to handle.

Even now when im typing this out, tears are still flowing.

For 2years, no one ever talked about it.

Untill today...

I'm strong.

We're strong.

3of us are.

I have a strong mind.

We've a strong mind.

3of us do.

They think so.

But do we really think so?

No one wants this to happen.

No one wished this would happen.

Especially the one and only, the one who suffered so much all this time,

the one who could have been dead just to give birth to a premature me.

She's upset/depressed more than anyone else.

And it hurts just to see her like this.

But still, im being rebellious, towards her.

I made them all dissapointed.

Doing things i shouldnt do.

I'm their biggest worry now.

Because there's no one there to guide me.

They think that i'll go astray if this continues.

And i know, i will.

Because there is Really no one there to guide me along.

Eversince all this started.

I would just kill myself now.

But i know it will not help.

It'll just make things even worst.

They want me to go over to hongkong to live with them during the holidays.

Every holiday.

They want me to stay over at bukit panjang on the weekdays.

Everyday.

Should i?

If i do, he'll be alone.

He'll Really have no one to talk to.

I'm suppose to hate him.

He's the cause of everything.

He made us break apart.

But i just Cant do it.

I CANT hate him.

I'm gonna stay over at my uncle's place tmr night.

I wanna talk to Tasha R.

She's going back next sunday.

So, i gotta spend time with her before she goes back.

I have to sleep now.

My eyes are so swollen.

Again, Happy Chinese New Year to everyone.

Nights.

My mind is gone, im spinning around.

Natasha Ridd is back!

TASHA IS BACK
TASHA IS BACK
TASHA IS BACK

TASHA IS BACK
TASHA IS BACK!

Hehehehehehe.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!

CIAO.

She wants to look at him.
But she doesnt want him to know,
Know that she's noticing his Every move.
So, she, just tries her best to peep,
whenever she could,
whenever she had the chance to,
Whenever, he is not noticing.
And just by doing that,
She'll be contented.
Very contented.

She's insane.
She knows, she knows.

But what else could She do?

"Whatever makes You happy."

I really loved you.

1. Who's the person who tagged you?

SHANNY!(:

2. Relationship between you and him/her?

My les partner. HAHA.

3. 5 impressions of him/her?

Sweet, nice, crazy, cute, strong

4. If he/she become your enemy, you will?

She will never be.

5. What will you say to the person you like very much?

I love you? If only i could, then.

6. A characteristic I like about myself?

Crazy.

7. A characteristic I hate about myself?

Too crazy sometimes.

8. For the person whom you hate,you say?

Disgusting.

9. What do people feel about you?

No idea.

10. Your crush?

?

11. Most ideal person you wanna be?

Dont know?

12. Pass this to 10 people:

1. Zhenquan

2. Sera

3. Suhui

4. Tasha

5. Angel

6. Yusri

7. Lydia

8. Shanny

9. Joey

10. Marcus

13. If 5 & 7 were together?

Hell no. Haha.

14. Who does 5 like?

Ahem ahem. HAHA. the big M.

15. What colour does 9 like?

erm, i dont know.

16. Say something to 8

HELLO! Seeyou on wednesday!:D

17. Who is 2?

SERA BAN.<3

18. Talk about 3.

My best friend for life.(:

19. Who is 10's Best friend?

Joey?(:

20. Who's the sexiest among all 10?

szq. Hahahaha. omfg.

21. What colour does 4 like?

Too many.

22. Is 4 single?

Nopeeeeee.

23. Your relationship with 1?

Bestfriends.

24. Are 5 & 6 Best Friend?

Good friends.(:

25. 9's Surname?

Chia(:

26. 7's Nickname?

I have no idea. heee.

27. Say something to 4.

I LOVEE you.

28. Say something to help 10?

Stay happy always.

29. Who does 1 admire?

Secret.

30. Where does 1 live?

Somewhere in Singapore.(:

31. Among 10 of them who do you like?

EVERYONE.

32. Say something to 6 when you see him/her.

HELLLLOOOO!

33. 10’s spouse.

No one?

k, done.

Haha.

Went out with Zhiwen ytd.

Enjoyed myslef.(:

Thanks for the dinner.

And takecare of your fractured thumb.

Seeyou next friday.

<3(:

I'm gonna go sleep now.

Nights ppl.

Ciao.

And now everytime i tried to walk away,

something there reminds me i should stay..

I know i should be strong.

But boy, it feels so wrong.

Moving on without you..

Its so much easier said than done.

I'm paraniod.

I just cant stop thinking.

セシリアシャーミス.

Best.

Just reach home from work.

Tmr, practical(!).

I cant wait to go school!(:

I'm gonna bath now.

Ciao.

The feeling is not fading away.

ik mis je, Alot; really.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SZQ!

Happy birthday to you.

Hope you enjoyed yourslef ytd.

Are you still in the wtf mood?

Hahahahahaha.

Thanks for being there for me always.(:

I'm gonna get ready for work now.

Practical tmr!:D

I'll reply to my tags soon ya.

Haha. Bye!

Its hard to walk away.

Finally, editings are done; again.

And i love it.

(:

Damn, i hate baking at home.

Something always go wrong.

Plus, my cramps are killing me.

Anyway, I really hope that ass likes the cake.

With his favourite strawbeeeerrrriiiessss.

:D

I'm leaving house soon.

Let's pray hard nothing happens to the cake on the way.

Haha.

Ciao.

The world, slows down, but my heart beats fast right now.

Future Pastry Chefs.(:

Guys like them, if only they could commit.

Then, there will be such things as happy ever after.

If only there was only one girl, Me, in this world.

When once, you said i love you.

Then, you wouldnt be able to look at other flowers,

there wouldnt be an excuse that you are scared you wont be able to commit,

scared that you'll hurt me or whatever too.

Or just leaving without saying anything when you promised we will still talk.

If only.. If only i was the only girl.

But sadly, that would be only in my dreams.

You have no idea.

No idea, how it feels.

It ended when it was just about to start.

I'm alone at home. Again. And i'm BORED. AGAIN. Today, practical was okay. Untill that over-aged man started his nonsense. It was crazy. Plus, i had a really bad headache. That makes it even more crazier. Vomited, and i felt so much better. After prac, Mikhail, Najib, Mark, Engjie, Timothy came to meet us ladies. Had dinner at market. Lepak ahwile under block. And went home. I swear one day i will strangle Mikhail and Najib. Haha.

Tmr, PE, theory lesson then going Far east. Thursday, practical. Friday, theory. Saturday, working? SUNDAY! IS SIAH ZHENQUAN'S BIRHTHDAY! HAHAHAHA. OMG OMG. Zq birthday Zq birthday Zq birthday Zq birthday Zq birthday Zq birthday Zq birthday!(: Z,A,K, WHEREEEEEEEE AREEE WEEEEEEE GOINGGGGGGGGG? heeeee. Mind me, im crazy. I just Love that crazzzzzzzzy/irritatingggg besssstest friend/brother of mine. Heh.

k, done blogging done crapping.

Bye.

Like a star.

Chocolate Chocolate Chocolate!

I want to be a Chocolatier.

Seriously, i want to be a Chocolatier.

I Love school now.

Practicals, Theory lessons.

Whatever. As long as its something to do with Chocolate.

(:

I'm gonna go bathe now.

Ciao.

And i still miss you.

Lovely.

And again.

This time, i'm gonna say this again.

" Call me stupid, call me blind, to still be suffering after all of this time."

Gosh, i'm so fucking stupid.

Cecilia Cecilia, when will you ever learn?

You're soooo fucking stupid.

Another Sweet talker, yet againnnn. Pffffffffffffffffffft.

Anyway,

i've been enjoying myself in school this few days.

Every Theory lessons are in culinary's demo room now.

Of all places. Ha.

Nvm, i was able to concentrade.(:

And, for

Practicalssssss = MAKING CHOCOLATES!

Hehehehehehehe.

I'm so loving it.

Took some pictures during pracs.

Chocolate molds.(:

The product i made.

Products made from everyone.(:

OMG, PEOPLE!

Making chocolate is soooo fun.

But, patience is required very importantly.

I want to be a chocolatier!

in my dreams~

Haha.

I Love my ladies.

And i Love the ring that we 3 made together.

Ytd was the 7th.

Happy one year one day anniversary of sistership!

I love you, babes.

(:

• Sentosa this saturday, with Augustine and the rest.
• Town this sunday, with Bf.

I hope it'll be fun on sat.

Augustine, please dont throw me inside the sea.

Thankyou.

Haha!

Ohya, Xuanyan, thankyou for helping me.

Really thankyou.

(:

okay, i shall stop here.

Ciao.

When two different worlds collide.

Omg, i LOVE Demi Lovato.

Her songs are all ohhhhhhh-soooooooo niccccceeee..

Reaaaaalllllyyyyyy...

Tomorrow will be the first day of school!

I cant wait to go to school.

Hehehehehe.

Too bad Mikhail didnt get into Clementi.

Awwww.. Haha!

Meeting Tasha at 12noon tmr.

I think i should sleep now.

Nightssss.

Ciao.

"You're the brightest star.

But he's not the beautiful moon."

Look, read.

Did you forget?

imy.

Whatcha think about that?

Pictures of how i spent my last day 2008 and first day of 2009.

Verrrrrryyy tiringggggggg.
Pictures stolen from Wenna's, Sera's and Ray's blog.

Hehehehe.

Had to reach siloso beach at 6pm.

Had instructions of what to do.

Information of what drinks we are selling.

How to change the barrels of beer..

Before the crowd came, we walked around and took pictures..

9pm onwards, we started to prepare..

Then, it was madness.

Jackson, the guy who danced all night.

Me and Sera.<3

Wenna and Ray.(:

Wenna, Sera and Augustine.(:

Wenna and me.(: ignore my beautiful hair.

HAhahahaha.

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Then it was "hi, may i help you?"

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untill around 5am in the morning..

When we started to count the coupons..

Counted untill 7plus-8?

And, we went back to the hotel to get our voucher for our pay..

While waiting..

Done.

No more pics.

(:

Went home after that.

Slept the whole day.(:

Worked the next day.

And today.

And tomorrow too.

Look at the time.

I should sleep now.

Whahahaha, Nights.

Ps: Learning how to tap cups of beer, is FUN. hehehehe.

Its making me M-A-D/C-R-A-Z-Y.

I'm going bonkers!!!!!.

Stop thinking Cecilia.. STOP thinking..

Its not gonna help, at all.