Recently i dont know what to blog about. I'm Lazy &restless. I dont know what else to do. Pictures deleted, Number deleted. Everything that can be deleted are all gone. There's only one left. &that is the memories in my head. That's the only thing one thing that can never be erased. But its not fading away either. &i still Miss him like crazy. I'm Sorry TashaW.): He is just not going out of my mind. &i know its me who is not letting it go.. I dont bare to. i know he is not worth it. but still.. Sigh.

Soulmate - Natasha Bedingfield

Incompatible, it don't matter though

'cos someone's bound to hear my cry

Speak out if you do

You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable

Is already in my life?

Right in front of me

Or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold

Who knows how to love you without being told

Somebody tell me why I'm on my own

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end

How do I find the perfect fit

There's enough for everyone

But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold

Who knows how to love you without being told

Somebody tell me why I'm on my own

If there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory

They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold

Who knows how to love you without being told

Somebody tell me why I'm on my own

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold

Who knows how to love you without being told

Somebody tell me why I'm on my own

If there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

I Miss you.

When can i ever get you off my mind?

):

-Happy Two months break up.

ik mis jou, Tasha R.! Come back soon alright dear? Thankyou for teaching me how to type in Dutch babe(: (L) anyways, my practical sucks today. I wished i did better.): Went to Yishun to meet up with Clarence &Tasha W. after practical. Had fun playing the swing! whaha. Argh, Clarence keep bullying me! god. You suck papa. haha! hmmm, started to think to of him again during the bus ride back home.. sigh. i guess he just never left my mind. why? Why??): i cut-ted my hair.. i didnt cut it because i din like it. i Love it. But, its because of something else.. I was so eager to cut it because it reminds me of him. Whenever someone touches or plays with my hair.. i'll remember him playing, touching&smelling my hair.. It feels so good.. really. No point keeping my hair long now.. He is not here anymore.. &Since the ends are dead, so my as well just cut it then. Firstly, there is one thing lesser to remind me of him. &secondly, i can grow healthier hair. I Will get over him. i cannot break down because of him.

Stay Strong Celia.

ps: I'm in Love with the lyrics of the song "My Happy Ending" by Avril Lavinge.

I Miss Natasha Ridd.

I need her hugggg..

ik mis jou, Tasha!

):

This week is crap. I dont have any mood at all. I dont know how to explain how i feel now. There is so much feelings inside me. But the strongest feeling that i can explain is i've been played. He is the first boyfriend that i dared to go out with. He made me feel that i was his everything. &he made his friends around him feel that way too. But now, i guess it was just a lie. A show that he was just acting in for 3months. He always say that i dont Love him. but i do. Alot. So, whenever he didnt call me &stuffs i would get pissed. But i didnt know getting pissed is wrong. &i didnt know that to him, i'm possessive over him. &he even said that he didnt wan to tell me because he didnt want me to cry & change for him. so, he wants me to realise it myself. How would i realise it myself when i think that i'm just caring for you? If i didnt mind you not calling me wouldnt you feel that i dont care for you? &you even said that sometimes i destroy your day. Who is destroying who's day? Who is the one who always have bad moods? YOU! &because of you i've changed. I wasnt as bubbly as before. Because i Always worry for you. &i started to neglect my friends just to be with you. Do you know that? Knowing all this from Clarence is very hurting. Because i didnt know that there were so many things about me you were unhappy with. Shouldnt you be the one who should tell me all this? If you really want our relationship to last? I guess you dont huh. There is something else that made me feel that i'm really stupid. Stupid that i've fallen for him. Him &his best friend, have been waiting for each other since sec 2? &YOU didnt tell me about it? I was honest enough to tell you that i've always had feelings for Ahwei. But alot of things came in between &we didnt know that we liked each other. Untill he has a gf then i knew he liked me before. At least i did tell you. I was honest. You're not. You always tell me you &her will never like each other. You even swear. &now, see what happens? This only proves that i've been living in a lie for the 3months we've been together. &i dont know what else to say now. Luke wong, why must you ever do this to me? 2weeks after we broke up &you are with her? &who would ever imagine that your feelings for me were fading? well, maybe some ppl would. but i certainly did not. I really cannot believe this. sigh. Even though i know all this now, i still cant get him off my mind.): the only time when i can, is when i Sm*ke &when i'm with BF, Tasha, Clarence &Bari. That's the only two thing that can make me not miss him. i dont know what else to do. i feel so dumb, stupid &pathetic. Thankyou Bf &Tasha for telling me the truth about Luke. &Thankyou Clarence for telling me all those stuffs too. Although i was the last one to know among us. But still, thankyou. I'll be fine. Just give me a little more time.. At least now im strong enough &i know that i can live without him. He is a Jerk. &i know that. He is not worth my tears &i know that too. Maybe this is my Karma, for treating Zhiwen the way i treated him last time. Ha. I'm sick. Having Flu, Sore throat &fever. I want to meet Ahwei so badly.

-

If boys can trust, Pigs can Fly/Shit can eat.

To Natasha,

Please Stay Strong.

We'll help you get through this.

You know i'm not good with words to comfort ppl.

But still, i hope you can feel how much i/we Care for you.

We Love you way more then that Ass do.

So, please girl stay strong.

We'll be there for you.

Like how you've been there for me when i needed you most.

Hun, WE LOVE YOU.

&you know that, right?:D

Seeyou tomorrow in school babe.

Plenty of Loves from : CCL(:

Beloved<3

Natasha R. went back today.): &i Miss her already. Stayed over at my uncle's house last night. &we chatted &slept in the living room again. i wished i didnt have to work that day then i wouldnt be so tired. &i could at least spend the last night with her longer. sigh. Have been a santa claus the past two days. because i have to give out namecards &keychains to the customers who came into our shop. &we have to say " hi, welcome to pepperPLUS.*grin*" Its dumb. but i had fun giving out the gifts. ha. Went to the airport in the afternoon today. & on the way to the airport Natasha R.&i camwhored. It was fun.(: i Miss her so much now. I wish i could fly to HongKong! jeez.. After sending her off, i went to meet up with BF, Tasha W. &Clarence at Yishun. Was suppose to discuss about the poster thing. In the end we chatted &went to watch the dark knight after BF went home for dinner with her family. It was a nice movie. Although i almost doze off. Not because it was boring, its because im really tired. haha. Something happened after the movie. I hope Tasha will be fine.. Stay strong girl. I Love you! &so does Angel &especially Clarence! Remember, no matter what you still have us(: okay, its....

Pictures time:D

Takecare People.

Nights!

Ps: Ahwei, please takecare.):

Firstly, i teared because of him again today. i hope he didnt saw it.. Thanks Tasha W. for your hug.. &sorry for crying in the middle of the road again.): Secondly, I'm working tomorrow &sunday.. sigh, thirdly, Natasha R.'s going home next Monday. I wish she doesnt have to leave.): &Last but not least,

i seriously miss this two.

Siti Q &Ahwei.):

My dearest Baobei & Dumbdumb.

I'm really tired now. Shall end here.

ps: Thankyou Ahwei, for waiting for my bus with me today again.(:

Seeyou on Tuesday.

Nightnight:D

Everything's alright now.(: We've talked things out. &i'm gald we did. Whahaha. Went to Raffles Hotel with BFs &Hafeez for the F1 interview today. Decided not to interview for that because i don't want to work on my birthday! argh, but the pay is alot! ): nvm, the interview is over. Shall not whine about it anymore.(: Went to meet up with Culinary ppl at Raffles city after that. Then, continued walking around after BFs &Hafeez left. Entered Billabong &i saw one really nice wallet &a bag. Bought the wallet. hehheh. &one day i will buy that bag too!:D oh ya. CLARENCE! if you're reading my blog, please tag! Don't just read &leave dumb dumb! haha! Anyway, Tasha kept trying the caps on my head.. haha. &so did Clarence.(he took a picture of me in a red &black cap. wanted to upload it. but i realise i look so ugly! god.) heh. Had my Chippy sausage! &trained home with them. Today was a nice day.. Thanks to all of my friends. I Love you guys. Especially, BF, Tasha &Clarence:D hehehe. Going to school with Ahwei tomorrow again:D I Miss him larh. Shall go to bed now(: Goodnights!

"Your mamas' so fat

that when she jumps for joy,

she got stuck!"

hahahahaha!

Friday night,

stayed over at my Uncle's house. My cousin &i slept in the living room again. Exactly the same as where we slept when she came down to visit &i went over to stay just to talk to her, two years ago. We prepared sweets &facial masks for the night.(: before we started chatting, she was talking to her Boyfriend through Skype. It was really fun looking at her talk to her BF. Its like watching a movie. haha! I couldnt understand what she was saying because she was speaking in Dutch. That's what makes it fun watching. To me. :D She hung up at ard 12plus. Then, we started to put our facial masks &stuffs. It was real fun. Had a really great time chatting with her after that. Wanted to chat longer.. But, at ard 5 i couldnt take it anymore.. So, i told her i want to sleep. Sorry Tasha.): The next morning, i woke up at ard 9am. Was woken up by both of my baby cousin.. One running around in her pampers.. & the another sitting in a walker &running around too. pffft. Went out with Tasha at ard 12plus. We walked ard Far east.. Suddenly, my aunt called. Asking Tasha whether she wants to go to Singfest anot. I was asked if i wanted to go to. But, i said no. Because i wanted to go back to Taman for the National Day Celebration. DUMB ME. i thought i would enjoy myself. okay, i did, a little.. Because i get to see my secondary school friends. But i didnt completely enjoy it because it was soooo boring. &i heard some stuffs that i didnt want to hear. Shit. i went to see you &you are with her.): But still, To Sera: i enjoyed the time with you. &i'm really sorry for leaving early that day. oh yeah, before going to the celebration, i met up wth Sera at JE. Went to Popular &bought one story book named "the book of Luke.". ha, i didnt buy it because of his name on it. Though i read it because i saw his name.. But, it was a really very interesting book. So i bought it.(: yeah so.. after i bought the book, we went to pizza hut to eat. &left for the celebration right after that. Went home at 1opm because i had work the next day.

Yesterday:

Worked.
It was really quiet at Wisma. heeeee,i was really suprised when TJH said that he misses me &hopes to see me soon. haha! hmmm, he was angry with me ytd. Just because i didnt want to meet him after work. But now he is not angry already:D Gosh, i haven reply to his msg yet. Shall end here. Ciao.

L,

i Miss you badly.

But, will you even care?

When will we ever be friends.....