I just Dont understand.

Practical was fun.
Went straight home after that.

I really dont understand.
Why would things be like this?
I wish things was the same as before.
When i could shout "papa!" from far in school.
Its gonna be really weird now..
I wish they could still be friends..

&i'm so fucking irritated now.
Seriously...
Just Shut up will you?
I cant take it anymore.
I wanna get out of this house.
I cant wait to get out of this house.

I'm so tired of everything.
I have such urge to end my life.
It will be better that way.
They will be happier without me.
Since, i'm the devil at home.
At least i wouldnt hear her ask me to my as well be a prostitude.
Ha.

My knee is really hurting.
I want see a doctor.
But, who will go with me?
Who will pay the medical fees for me?
They used to care.
But now. They dont.
All they think is my behaviour is getting worst &worst.
They dont care if i cant run anymore.
They will think its better because i will stay at home more often.
But its making me mad.
I wanna run.. i really want to..
But, the pain is really killing me nowadays..
Even when i walk.
The only thing that can somehow relieve my pain is my knee guard.
That's why i'm wearing it everyday now.
But even if i do, it still hurts.
The pain really can make me cry.
Because imagine BOTH knee hurting at the same time..
Both of them.. Hurting..
Ever-y-da-y.
What if i really cant run or walk in the future?
What if what if what if?
I know i'm thinking too much.
But, i'm really scared/terrified.
):

Enough of this.
I love this song.

Its soothing me down.

High School Muscial 3 is really a awesome movie.

I will nv regret watching it.

Watched it with my sis ytd.

Its seriously,

A-W-E-S-O-M-E.

Singing, singing &more singing.

(:

I'm going out for a run now.

I'll get use to the pain sooner or later.

Goodbye.

L.I.F.E.

Somehow, i dont trust guys anymore..

I can say the Only Guy that i trust now,

is ZQ.

The others, i just cant make myself trust them.

You made me trust you.

Trusted that i was really your only one.

But, in the end i got all this bullshit.

&my life so miserable.

You, i wanna trust you.

Seriously, i do.

But after him, i dont believe most of

what guys say anymore.):

When you say you dont call other girls, i believe.

But, inside of me there is still a part that tells me

that i cant trust you entirely.

Sigh.. This is a crap.

I'm gonna prepare for school now.

Babye.

Try to dress up when i'm Missing you.

Aloha!

Reached home at 8plus this morning.

Slept &woke up at 3plus just now.

I'm still so tired.

But, i cant sleep.

Why why why?

I dont know too.

):

I had fun ytd.

The coffin was interesting.

But, Boring.

Shah was irritatinggggg in the cinema.

Next time i'll stick the popcorn up your nose &not in your mouth!

hahahahaha!

Augustine &everyone else are so funnyyyyy.

Had fun playing arcade with

Augustine, Andrea &Shah.(:

Had fun watching them play pool too.

Thankyou Marcus for the short pool lesson!(:

Chillied at Clarke Quay after movie.

Talked, gossiped, sang.

I really had fun:D

But i'm really exhuasted now.

There are some photos with Sera.(:

Shall upload them when i got it.

Ciao.

Ps: Sera Sera(!) my dearest dearest, i loveeee you!:D LOL.

- 5.13pm

我明白我要的爱，会把我宠坏。

Good Morning!

I slept so well(:

God, my stomach still hurts because of all the laughing last night.

That idiotttttt! argh.

Peter Parker!! HAHA.

Suntanning later!

Weeeeee, the sun is greaaaaat.

I'm so high now.

Dad bought breakfast &Soya bean for me.

Every sundays routine.

Same food Same drink.

Nasi Lemak &Soya bean!*grin*

Hehehehhee.

Look Look!

Isn't it effffffing cute?

OMG!(:

I'm gonna bath now.

Ciao.

-

11:34am

If i were a boy.

The coconut candies are delicious!

Tasha let me bought some home.

Thankyouuu!:D

Anyway,

I've decided.

I'm going tmr..

I'm gonna watch movie with class CB.(:

Meeting Sera tmr afternoon to go tanning.

I hope it doesnt rains.

I'll be going her house after that till night.

Then, we'll go &meet class CB together:D

OMG,idiottttt is is making me laugh like a crazy woman!

TSK!

Idiottt is calling later(:

Shall end here.

Ciao.

Soyaaa beannn(:

I'm at Tasha W's house now.

Just finish studying.

hehehehe, i did study okay.

yeah i did, abit(:

Here are the photos we took ytd.

While making Onde onde &Jemput jemput..

Our colourful onde onde!

(before dipping it with grated coconut)

Jemput jemput(:

our products turned out to be niceeee &tasty, of course:D

hahahahaha.

I'm gonna go see how Tasha makes coconut candy now.

CIAO.

I will testify to Love.

Finally(!), editings are done(:

I'm contented with with what i see now.

My new blogskin:D

hehehehehe.

Studying with my girls tmr.

Next Week. Is our exam.

Ahhhhhhhhh..

I Must. study hard tmr!

hmmm, i hope i can though.

(:

Should i or should i not?

Watch midnight movie with class CB on sunday?

I want to. But, i dont have money to watch.

Argh,damn.

I'm exhuasted.

My tigger is waiting for me on my bed,

i can hear it calling. LOL(:

Nights people,im going to my lala land.

Ciao.

XOXOXOXO

Efffffffing Adorable.

Cause' i Believe.

Practical

Did crepes &souffles.(:

Super tiring.

But, had fun.

Enjoyed it.

Home-ed after that.

&here i am:D

Damn.

I hate my group's timing for practical now.

Its ending so late.

I hope i was still in the morning session.):

Asian sweet's practical tmr.

We're making onde onde &jumput jumput!

Just thinking of it makes me sooo highhhhh:DDDD

hehehehehe!

(:

Gonna call Tasha W. now to tell her what time we meeting tmr.

Byebye.

Ps: This is Siah ZhenQuan.

&he rocks.

HAHAHAHA.

*vomit*LOL.

Happy belated Birthday Papa'Clarence!(:

Ytd school was fun.
I helped to fry the sweet potato dough during demo:D
hehehe, yummm yumm!


Celebrated Papa's birthday at Tasha w's house after school.
I thought its only celebrating for him..
In the end, they sang birthday song for me too.(:
I was really really happy. I almost teared..
Because, i didnt get to celebrate my bdae with them.):
Then, finally i get to!
Haha! Thankyou guys! I loveeee you:D


Having practical later.
Making crepes(:

WEEEEEEE~

I'm currently addicted to Jonas Brothers-Lovebug.
Its stuck in my head.
GOD.(:


Finally, its over.
I shall not talk about it anymore.
I hope you really wont too.

Got to get ready for school(:

bye.
ciao.
adios.
:DD

真正的爱是不求回报的。

Hji is een KLOOTZAK.

I cant pretend not seeing what i saw.

Its your blog, you have the right to say what you want.

Yes, but not those craps.

I'm not bugging you &neither did i do anything wrong.

Only those stupid idiots will believe what you say.

Oh yes, actually i Was wrong. Wrong to be with you!

So shut up, live your Happy life with her&leave me alone!

I, already said very clearly,

that i dont hate you(!) on one of my previous posts.

Which part of I. DON'T. HATE. YOU. dont you understand?

I'm not the bitch, you're the real Bastard.

&you know that don't you? HA.

Whatever it is, just shut up &go away.

I Dont care if you're really writing about me anot.

&i dont even care if you are happy with her.

Get this. You're the one who hates me, i'm Not the one who hates you.

&seriously, I DON'T CARE. &if you dont get it, i'll repeat once more.

I DONT FUCKING CARE. understand?

Continue writing if you want.

Since, you said, you're NOT talking about me.

Then, go ahead.

If you really still dare to.

If you're that stupid &wonder who i'm talking to.

Let me tell you who.

I'm talking to You, Luke Wong EnXin(:

C-I-A-O.

you're ridiculous.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SCANDAL'CTQ!:D
I Love you!
XOXOXOXO.

working later.
Ciao.(:

I'll keep quiet &wont say a thang.

School's boring.

I only love practicals &the girls time.

This week is crap, espeacially monday.

Only some, knows why.

Haven't spoken to idiot since last sunday.

sigh.):

I just hope next Monday comes quickly.

Then, i will able to buy soya bean for that Smelly Bum.

-

i'm sick &tired of this.

when will it ever stop?

After i graduate?

Stop putting all the stress on me.

I cant take it anymore.

I'm not the only one who speaks in this Family.

Speak to him yourself if you really still wanna be "close" to him.

Dont go through me, to "talk" to him.

Pass messages to him Yourself.

I'm. Not. A. Messenger.

One day, one day, i will go bonkers.

More &more problems are coming in.

All of you just think that i'm enjoying my life.

But, you guys do Not understand.

Nobody in the Family understands at all.

Expect for Tasha..

Natasha Ridd.

I miss her.

I miss talking to her.

Babe, i miss you.

When are you coming back?

):

i'm tired.

&i need some rest.

b.

i feel like shit
i hate my fucking life
i just wanna die.

You can't change the truth, accept it.

I'm bored bored bored. Starting school tmr! Means no more Tanning Sessions for me anymore.): I'm excited to go to school.. But i kinda dont feel like going to school too.. Its so boringggggg. Gosh, i havent done my homework yet! ha. I'm gonna stay at home to rest/sleep today. Cuz, when school starts i dont think i'll get enough rest or sleep. Sigh. I miss my girls badly. Time please run faster so i can see my girls sooooooooon~ Beach, Sand, Sun, i'll miss you when school starts..): but i'll promise i'll visit you once a week(!), if only i can; that is. Anyway, i went to cut my hair.. My fringe. I'm sick of bangs. &I love my fringe now:D *grin* My thumb still hurts after spraining it while playing volleyball with the culinary peeps that day.): Shall end here. Will update soon. CIAO.

- you're welcome(:

SENTOSA(:

Met up with Shan &Sera at 930 .

had breakfast at Taman Jurong's S11.

Then, off we went to find the others at vivo.

Let the pictures do the talking.(:

Partner(:

Sera loves taking my butt. LOL-.-

Volleyball(:

Dearest(:

Andrea:D

Shah, the CACAT(:

Marcus(:

Huishan, taken by Augustine.

Ray &Shah(:

Shah(:

Xuan Yan &Shan:D

Me,Shan,Sera!

hehehe.

There are still lots of photos with Marcus.

Will upload them soon.(:

I had Aloooooootttttt of fun that day.

:D

i'm helping idiot to edit his blog now.

You owe me a meal huhhhhh..

haha!

k, thats all.

CIAO.

- this crush ain't going away.

Lovers to Foes.

Good morining!
B-O-R-E-D(:

Going Sentosa tmr!
With culinary class CB.
Weird, but i'm going for the sake of
being able to have time to spend with Huishan.(:
Sera's going too.
Augustine invited us:D
So, i guess tmr will be a fun day?
hehheh.

Watching Love & Basketball on watch-movies.net now.

Totally awesome..(:
Basketball basketball basketball basketball...
sweeeeeeeet~

i'm hungry.
shall go find food to eat.
CIAO.

-

idiot, where are youuuu huhhh?

x

5.25pm

Huishan's so irrtatinggggggg..

argh. haha!

Went to cj building to collect her phone.

then, went to imm's mac to have lunch.

There was this guy beside us.

He was eating so fastttttt..

Like as if he didnt eat for dunno how many Thousand years..

LOL.

That stupid Cacat(Huishan) keep imitaing the way he eat,

even after that guy left for so long..

IRRITATINGGG LARHHH!

tsk.

Walked around imm & left ard 4.

i headed home &she headed for training.

(:

PARTNER,

i nv fail to laugh like a crazy woman & enjoy myself,

whenever i'm with you larh!

hahahahahaha!

Thanks for your time today.

SEEYOU TMR!

we'll have fun together with Sera at sentosa ya.

:D<3

Anyways, i want micro dermal piercings!

so niceeeee larhhhh.

but i bet it'll hurt like crazy.

Micro Dermal Piercings.(:

Isn't it nice?

okay, maybe not to you.

But to me, its pretty:D

i doubt i could ever get one.

its so expensive.

):

but if i save money, i could:D

hehehehe.

Lets seeeee..

k, last update.

i'm going running soon.

TASHA's CALLING TASHA's CALLING!

yeah! *grin*

Ciao.

im sorry.):

soyaaaaaa beaaaaaan.

No use thinking.

I wanna go Suntanning.
But, no one's free.
):

Recently, i've been listening to the songs he sang before.
My heart still feels really heavy whenever the songs repeat.

&i've been thinking,
if he really meant every word that he sang.
You might not know this,
but whenever you sang to me,
you make me fall for you more..
Do you know that, baby?

i'm listening to with you by chris brown now.
this is the song that i'm really scared of listening to.
&i am making myself or should i say forcing myself to listen to it again.
i cant believe that.. i'm actually.. tearing..
yes, Again.

i miss you..
i miss you like crazy..

i'm not suppose to say all this anymore.
i'm not suppose to let you know that i miss you..
but baby, i really miss you..

Sigh,dont you worry, i'm getting over you.
i'm trying to & i will, soon.
Listening to the songs just made me miss you suddenly.
That's all.
ha.

k, enough of emo-ing.
Lets look at shuai ges from hot shot drama~
(:




HEHEHEHE.
Someone faster upload ep 11 pleaseeee..
):

anyway, i'm not meeting Zhiwen on friday already.

cuz its his bro's birthday. sad.

nvm, shall meet up next week?

this time, bimbo; you plan!

:D

oh yeah, i'm bored.
Tasha's calling Tasha's calling!!!

*grin*

ciao.

ps: Zq, i hate you..
like duh-.-

Superman(:

Another day of rotting at home.

Played games on msn with idiotttt just now.

Lost for most of the games.):

but at least i won for rock, paper &scissors!

:D

argh.

soyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa beaaaaaaaaan.

haha!

goshhhh,

i'm freaking bored now.
Finding things to entertain myself.

like watching Shinchan(La bi xiao xin) on youtube:D

LOL.

x

stupid/retarded snowman.

heeeeeee(:

ciao.

Don't E-a-t with your mouth full.(:

helloooooo(:
Went shopping with Bf today!
Then, off to jp for dinner with sissy after that..
:D

Our Lunch(:


BFs<3

Had Anderson's Ice Cream with sissy after dinner:D
the stupid strawberry dropped, haha.


cabbed home & reached home at 9(:


Meeting Zhiwen on friday.
We're meeting to have dinner together.(:
i wonder what we'll be eating?
heeeeeee.


damn, idiot's phone spoil.):


i'm bored.
nothing else to say.



k,ciao.

reply to tags:
zq: he wont even know how to read those chinese words how to sing? bimbo.
hui: i LOVEEE that song tooo!(:

Soya bean, Soya bean, Soyaaaaa beaaaannnnnnn; Haha!

Went to Sentosa with Tasha ytd.
Tanning session again.
hehheh, had fun.
but i'm in pain.. due to Sunburnssss again.):
i Love Natasha Weerasekera!<333333





Got a can of free red bull while walking to take the tram.(:

it gives you wingggggggs to flyyyyy~
LOL.

Met up with Clarence Papa at Yishun after that.
Went to Safra &played pool!

i won 3times.(:
but, i know Papa let me to win.
Thanks gazillion Clarence!:D
<3333

Reached home around 9.
&went online:D
Played tic tac toe &chess.
i won 4times for tic tac toe.(:
but i lost for chess.
so, i owe idiot one cup of soya bean..
hate you.
;P

Went offline at 11.30++ because i was having fever.
):

alright, that's all.
gonna sleep soon.

Ciao.