Everyone!

If you love Jonas Brothers, watch this movie on youtube!

seriously,it's real nice.<3

29th of July.

Haaaapppppyyyy Birthdayyyyy to Natasha Ridd!

(: i loveeee that crazy cousin of mine.

hehehehe. didnt went to school..

My aunt came to pick me up in the afternoon..

Then, we went to Orchard to shop.

&at the same time, waited for my uncle,aunt &sister to come

to meet us for lunch, to celebrate Tasha's birthday:D

After lunch, we went shopping till 6plus.

TIME PASSED SO FAST.

omg. haha!

Camwhored in the car on the way back to my uncle's house.

3nicest ones.

hehehehe.

gosh, how i wish she doesnt have to go back to her country next month.

nvm, i'll be staying over at my uncle's house at chua chu kang on friday.

whahaha. we shall stay up till very late ya, tasha ridd?

:) ahhh, i miss her sooo much now..

friday friday come faster please..

i want to meet her in the afternoon & Ahwei in the morning!

-Met up with Ahwei in the morning

&went to school together today.

Both of us were late for class, as planned.

haha! but i made him miss his bus.

sorry dumb &thankyou for accompanying me to wait for bus at JE.

&&thankyou so much for the chocolate.

:D heeeee, met up with him again in the afternoon &went home together.

OMG, that dumb ran 7.27mins for 2.4km!

crazy! haha!

took 98 home.

&here i am.

shall go watch my taiwan drama now.

换换爱!

(:

loves.

Natasha R.'s BACK.(:

Gosh,i missed her sooo much.

-shall update more soon.

Meeting Ahwei tomorrow morning.

Need to sleep early..

Nights everyone.

<3

Some people think of Teen Love and smile. It's not real love, they say. Puppy Love, they call it. Those people, I think, have very short memories, and no longer recall the realities of their first love experiences. While few expect teen love to last a lifetime, that hardly makes it less real. Half or more of all adult love doesn't last a lifetime either. Teen love is very real. And powerful. Perhaps at no other time in our lives are the joys and pains felt as strongly, or experienced more deeply. Who among us, after all, can ever forget our first love?

Today,while going to school.
i thought i saw him standing at the place

where he would wait for me last time.
but when i look again, he wasnt there anymore.
i'm getting over him. Like what Tasha said.
because now, i wouldnt want to see him at all.
i wouldnt miss him as much.
but sometimes, i will wish that he was still here.
Every morning i go to school, i will imagine..
him waiting for me outside my doorstep or at the busstop.
i will imagine, what if one day he really

appears infront of my doorstep again.
what will i do?
there are memories almost everywhere.
&i'm slowly forgetting them.
but the ones around my house area are really hard to forget.
i miss smiling to myself

whenever i see him walking to me from far.
its dumb. but i really do miss it.
i walked the path that we

will always walked to school, alone today.
i suddenly missed him so much.
i miss him calling me baby.
i miss him calling me every night.
i miss him writing sweet msges for me.
i miss him singing to me.
i miss going to chua chu kang to meet him in the morning.
i miss him coming to all the way from

bukit panjang just to send me to school.
i miss waking up really early in the

morning just to send him to school.
i miss tickling his neck &make him have goosebumps.
i miss every lil thing about him.
most importantly, i miss his sweet smile.
baby, you heard me?
i miss your sweet smile.
when will i ever see you smiling back at me?
when will i ever see you looking at me?
when will we ever be friends? sigh.
Cecilia, when will you ever stop talking about him?
you have to just stop thinking of him.
really, i know.
but i just cant.
time, pass faster please.
i need to/have to get over him competely.

蔡旻佑演唱雙截棍抒情版(:

thanks to dar, i got to hear this.
pause my song &hear it!
super nice:DDDD

HUHU(:
CeciliaChew here to talk about WED, THURS &Today!
whaha. okay, im crazy.(Stop being so high, Cecilia.)
:D

WEDNESDAY,
Had PE in the morning..
was suppose to go late &meet Ahwei.
But didnt.
Cuz, dun bare to let BF go school alone.
whaha, sorry TayJianhui.
hmmmm.. PE was fun.. Played Badminton.
Stupid Jack. Made me run here &there.
super tiring. but, was fun though.(:
Me &Tasha slept during Miss Tan's lifeskills lesson.
&nice BFs drew this for us.

Ah Ce(me) &Ah Sha(Tasha).
haha!
very sweeeeeeeet right?
wth. haha! BF~
(: hehe, another thing i saw made me so high when i woke up.
this!

hehe! so cuteeeeeee! TIGGER!
HAHA! Livia bought it from minitoons.
i'm defintely gonna get it!
Next time, my house must be filled with T-I-G-G-E-R-S!
whahahahaha!
Class ended at 3plus.
Culinary class ended ard the same time.
so, we went out of school together.
He was walking infront of me.
i had this really wierd feeling.
its really very sad to not being able to talk to him &just looking at him from the back.
i already tried not to think of anything.
but, when i saw his phone &the way that he talked to the person on the phone,
looks like how he would talk to when we were together.
that sweet smile. sigh.
i just kept wondering who was on the line.
slowly, other things came in too.
like the things that we do when we're together.
i just cant stop thinking that, all i can do now is just look from far.
the way he ignored me really really start to hurt again at that moment.
that is why, i cried.
i'm sorry for crying in the middle of the passage way.
thanks BF,Tasha,Clarence&Bari for making me laugh.
Espeacially Clarence, THANKYOU.
i didnt expect i would be like that, that day.
i thought i was strong enough already.
i guess i'm not. sigh.
JIAYOU CECILIA.
But, thank god i met up with TayJianhui at JE after school.
Cuz we ended ard the same time.
Then, went home together.
Its been so long, since i've talked met up &talk face to face with him.
hehehe. i LAUGHED all the way from Jurong East to Taman Jurong.
OMG, haha! he nv ever failed to make me laugh.
&for the first time in 5years that we've known each other,
i talked back at him, untill he was SPEECHLESS.
hahahahahaha! he nv ever gone speechless when he is arguing with me.
i've got skill now.. dun you ever dare disturbing me again ar, TayJianhui.
hahaha! He got off the same stop as me &sent me home.
so sweet huh. *vomit* haha!
Tall but no brain dumbo. whaha!
Msged with him untill i fell asleep at 10plus.
:D

stop staring at me larh, bitch.

THURSDAY,
Had practical..
Made Brochie.
hehehehe, so nice..
Mr Rosli said Mine &BF bread was well-baked.
weeeeee~
Went home with Clarence, Zul &BF after that.
Reached home, used com for while then went to JE to meet up with my mum.
because i need to buy some baking stuffs at phoon huat.
heeeee. now i know, why i'm so lame.
passed down from my MUM.
OMG, i didnt know she was so lame untill ytd.
haha! she said, she is a ice cream, cannot walk in the rain cuz will melt..
WTH larh! hahahaha! haiya~
reached home ard 8plus then watched tv
&at the same time waited for Ahwei to msg me after his match untill 11.
slept at 11plus.
i dreamt of him last night.
i dreamt that he was talking to me.
Like normal friends.
he was telling me about the girl he likes.
&i was helping him, giving him tips on how to win her heart.
but he told me, he dont really loved that girl..
&he asked me one qns, he asked"will you believe if i said i still love you more than anyone else?"
he sounded so serious. i said i dont know. &he smiled. so sweetly. &walked away.
i woke up after that. &i thought. when will that day ever come?
...

TODAY,
Met up with BF.
Saw Clarence there too.
Tasha was late, so she asked us to go to school first.
We left &Clarence waited for her.
Today was quite boring.
But Miss Tan's lesson was fun.
(: Went to Phoon Huat with BF &Tasha after school to buy my bread flour.
Left JE at 2plus.
We're going sentosa tomorrow!
whahahaha! i cant wait!
that TayJianhui is SLEEPING.
like a pig as usual.
waiting for him to wake up..
&pass me my KINDER BEUNO!
hehehehehe. &&&&&cousin is coming back tomorrow!
YEAH! tommorrow will be a happy day!(:
loves to all.
ciao.

bitch,if you dare.

come &talk to me yourself.

dont ask you GUYS to stare at me,

to make you look like you have ppl behind you.

coward.

想念是会呼吸的痛, 它活在我身上所有角落.
哼你爱的歌会痛, 看你的信会痛.

连沉默也痛. 遗憾是会呼吸的痛, 它流在血液中来回滚动.
后悔不贴心会痛, 恨不懂你会痛, 想见不能见最痛.
我发誓不再说谎了, 多爱你就会抱你多紧的.
我的微笑都假了, 灵魂像飘浮着, 你在就好了.
我发誓不让你等候, 陪你做想做的无论什么.
我越来越像贝壳, 怕心被人触碰,

你回来那就好了. 能重来那就好了..

我不可望他会回来了。

虽然有时候我真的好希望他在我的身边。

但，我知道他永远都不会回来了。

我已经好努力的想办法忘记他。

可是我就是做不到。

给我多一点时间，时间久了，我会忘记他的。

一年也好，两年也好。

只要我不去理他，我一定会忘记他的。

我好谢谢他。

谢谢他这三月以来，让我感受到被人疼爱的感觉。

我真的很开心有他在我身边。

虽然我现在好心苦，但我会慢慢习惯的。

有我的那些好朋友的配伴，我会快快乐乐的过每一天。

谢谢大家在我最需要你们的时候，陪伴这我。

现在我终于了解一件事，

那就是，

爱情，承诺，

都是骗人的。

。。。

whahaHA.
SATURDAY(:
When to work, at Wisma.
Was super bored because the customers were very little.
&my phone was really quiet too.):
but still, im happy.
because i get to see my G2000men,Shuai Ge!
hehehe! hmmm, ended work at ard 9plus.
Rushed down to harbourfront to meet my family.
Then, went home.
BORING DAY.
went home &slept.
(:
SUNDAY!
Went to work at JurongPoint:D
Happy that Meijing was working with me on that day.
hmmm, didnt really have the mood to work that day.
because.. i got a reply that i didnt expected.):
the whole day i was so moody..
Ahwei knew because i was msging him &he said he's coming to find me with Azmin.
haha! i was so happy. because i didnt expect that he would come &visit me.
:D They came around 3plus i think.
although is like a few seconds of "visiting"..
i was still very happy.
TAYJIANHUI, you have a very dumb smile.
haha! hmmm, i typed a 9pages msg to L.
i said everything that i wanted to say..
i hope at least he felt something.
Ended work ard 9plus &went home.
Got home in time to watch incredible tales &pushing daises(:
Msged With Ahwei till i got tired &went to sleep ard 12plus.
:D
MONDAY:
Finally got to see my girls!
missed them soooo much..
heeee, had a fun time in class ytd.
the sweet roll is nice with melted butter(:
yummm. :DD
went home after school.
because i wanna rush home &see my nephew!
whaha. sorry Ahwei,
for not waiting for you at JurongEast..
:D i'm so happy!
My sister bought a electric oven for me.
heee, though it wasnt the one that i choose..
but still, i should be gald that i have a oven now right, bf?
Loves.(:
haha, poor Ahwei didnt get to play in the match ytd.
Come on, TAYJIANHUI.. you are not lousy larh!
ask Zq! Ask everyone in JSS Crosscountry team!
he very lousy meh? dumbdumb.
i miss BF, Tasha &SUHWEE!
):
TODAY,
had practical..
super slack..
keep seeing ahhhhhhhhhhh!
(BF, you should noe who i'm talking about hor?)
so shuai! hehehehehe.
my dough today so long then dry larh!
wait untill i fed up.
haha! sorry BF, for being so moody today.
heeeee. ended at ard 1plus.
i was the last one to finish):
argh. nvm, get to see Tasha!
:DDDDD went home after practical.
There is PE tomorrow!
RUN RUN RUN! weeeeeee~
BF, TASHA, SEEYOU GIRLS TOMORROW~
*point fingers together*ZZZZZZZZZ,MUACKZ!
heeeeeee.. LOVES.

i regret giving up on 7 &liking him.

but still, i thank him for giving me such good memories.

sometimes, i do miss him.

&he keeps appearing in my mind.

memories of us just keeps flashing back.):

but now, i wont be so emotional le.

i'll just giggle to myself when i think of the dumb stuffs we did.

i wont cry no more.

i'll get over him.

i know i can.

CECILIA, jiayou.

Went to school today:D
hehehe. Met up with BF &Tasha..(:
Saw DUMBDUMB CLARENCE!
haha! lesson started at 9am &ended at 1plus.
Stayed in school to study..
For the first time this year, i was serious in class!
miracle~ hehhhh.
Me &Tasha studied, while BF sleep after eating..
we drew something for her..

hehehheheh.
Left school at ard 3plus &went to vivo with Culinary class.
Felt weird because the last time i went out with them is with him.
&it was always with him.
but this time it was with Tasha only.
nvm, had quite a fun time laughing.
though it was boring at first.
(: Left vivo at 7plus.
took 188 back to clementi den Tasha &Clarence accompanied me to wait for bus.
Like how Z.A.K would last time.
I MISS ZHEN QUAN, ANDY &JUNKO! sigh.
My bus came like 5mins later.
so, i left. &Clarence sent Tasha home.
Im working tomorrow as usual on every weekends.
anybody free, just come wisma's pepperplus visit me k?
haha! Ciao.

ERIC DILL~ *faints*

*

i hope that he'll be strong enough to take those tough trainings..

i'm so worried for him.

LWEX,please do takecare of yourself. sigh.

-

God, please look after him &make him strong.

Tuesday:
Didn't went to school because i had stomach ache.
keep running in &out of the toilet.
haha, sorry bf for not going to school &you have to go alone..
felt better in the afternoon then Sera came to find me!
heeee. its been so long i've met her!
we went to Taman mac to chat &gossip.
Reminded me of our secondary school days.. sigh.
i miss those days with them &Z.A.K.
anyway, went to sera's house after that &met up with dar on the way.
Lim SuHwee! your uniform super big larh!
haha! gossiped at sera's house again(:
&surprisingly, i didnt think of him at all.
i did talk about him very oftenly but it didnt hurt as much as weeks ago.
guess maybe i got use to it.
The whole day they made me laughed so much.
Its been quite ahwile since i've laughed till my stomach hurt.
Haha,they really know what to do when it comes to cheering me up.
:D i love them &thank them.
now, i feel so much better.
i'm not emo anymore..
i'm back! F.I.N.A.L.L.Y~

Left Sera's house around 7.30..
Then accompanied Dar take 99 to her house..
&i took 98 home after that.
(:

Wednesday:
Went to school:D
Met up with BF &Tasha in the morning as usual.
Went for PE. heeee.. Ran 2km(:
After PE was Miss Chin's lesson then demo.
Ended class at ard 4plus then accompanied BF with Tasha to stay in school &study.
stupid spider. Make BF &Tasha scream like hell.
haha! i was the heroine of the day.. right girls?
i felt bad killing the spider though.
heeee.. anyway, we waitied for CA people to end class while studying &slacking.
i didnt get to see him.
wonder where he went?
i felt werid not seeing him.
just one glance &i'll be happy.
):
Walked to Interchange &BF,Bari,Tasha&Clarence accompanied me to wait for bus..
Thanks guys..
after my bus came, they trained home.

Clarence told me that he said he will msg me.
i couldnt make myself to believe what L said at all.
maybe he is just saying that for fun.
i do not have any high hopes.
but still, i wish he would.
dumb me.

Today:
Went to school..
Had Practical..
i got to make my CIABATTA(italian bread)~
weeeeee~
made rye bread too.
but i hate it.
taste like.....EEEEEEEEEEEE..*vomit*
haha!
went to KFC to eat with BF her boyfriend &two of my classmates.(:
went home after that.
was suppose to meet Sera today.
but in the end i had something on..
SORRY SERA!
hmmm, i didnt see him today again.
nowadays i always see his classmates, i see clarence, i see bari..
but why.. dun i get to see him?
weird.
i miss BF.
i miss Tasha.
See you girls tomorrow!
heeee. loves.

bye.


He's my HOTTIE(:
ERIC DILL.

*it use to be 6 of us.

Now, its only left with 5.

those days..

sigh.

THE VOICE WITHIN.

Young girl, don’t cry

I’ll be right here

when your world starts to fall

Young girl, it’s alright

Your tears will dry,

you’ll soon be free to fly

When you’re safe inside your room you tend to dream

Of a place where nothing’s harder than it seems

No one ever wants or bothers to explain

Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

Chorus:

When there’s no one else, look inside yourself

Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within

Then you’ll find the strength that will guide your way

You’ll learn to begin to trust the voice within

Young girl don’t hide

You’ll never change if you just run away

Young girl just hold tight

Soon you’re gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed

It’s so hard to stand your ground when you’re so afraid

No one reaches out a hand for you to hold

When you look outside look inside to your soul

Chorus:

When there’s no one else, look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within
Then you’ll find the strength that will guide your way
You’ll learn to begin to trust the voice within

Life is a journey

It can take you anywhere you choose to go

As long as you’re learning

You’ll find all you’ll ever need to know

(be strong)

You’ll break it

(hold on)

You’ll make it

Just don’t forsake it because

No one can tell you what you can’t do

No one can stop you, you know that I’m talking to you

Chorus:

When there’s no one else, look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within
Then you’ll find the strength that will guide your way
You’ll learn to begin to trust the voice within

Young girl,don’t cry

I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall..

My blog is dead.
didnt really have the mood to update.
but shall just say some stuffs.

nobody knows how i feel.
everybody will just find me irritating.
&no one cares about me.
maybe they do care.
but, all they care about most is their own partner.
sigh, that's how i feel nowadays.
bf, i dunno what's wrong with me..
but i cant stop thinking that you guys dun give a damn about me..
im sorry for thinking so much again.
Haix.

the only thing that will make me real happy is spending time with Z.A.K.
with them i'll laugh. &i'll feel really happy..
so, i'll hope we'll meet up soon.
Zhenquan,Junko,Andy, if you are reading this..
meet up soon okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?
(:

&i thank that dumb pig for trying to cheer me up.
i appreciate it.
thankyou.

*
you will always be my baby
&you will always be a part of me.